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I've been having this recurring dream for the past three years or so. I've heard that, in broad strokes, it's not an entirely uncommon dream. While I haven't had this specific dream before, I've had dreams which are extremely similar.

Okay, so I dream that I'm living back in Hamilton, in the house I lived in as a teenager. Uhm, and, somehow it's transpired that I've decided to go back to University, to get some kind of Masters degree in something not particularly useful. But I've been sleeping for a long time, and I'm not really aware of what day it is. Anyway, I get up early, and I'm asking my mum if she knows where my class is, and my little sister says:

"You've missed three weeks of classes, you'll never catch up, there's almost no point in going."

And I just stand in the kitchen, kind of slumping, thinking: "Well, what do I do now?"

And then I woke up, all covered in sweat and shaky and frightened.

Yesterday me and some friends got together for our semi-irregular band rehearsal. Songs are made up on the spot and, while I'm not very good at it (I usually revert to either joking or screaming), I occasionally step up to the mic and sing some lyrics off the top of my head. One of the lines that came to me yesterday was:

I know I'm treading water
and I know I can't do that forever
but if there's nowhere to swim to
is there any point setting out to?